thank you....

thank you yasha for the nice comment before..it's uplifting...and on that note i wanted to make a dedication out to all my close friends...without you i am nothing but a leaf in the wind....but when you guys are with me.....and i fly in the wind...we make loud noise together..and that company is well appreciated..=)..or else who would know when leaves pass by??

what reminds me of my friends...well as whoever is reading...i've been going through a DECENTLY but not tremendously hard time in life..much of my hard times has passed...but in my daydreams of the day..i thought about a few of my close friends.....

derek: i thought about it...i think derek will probably be my best man in my marriage...although he is whooped with his gf....i have always been able to count on him to stand by me in every time of need..he has taught me so much in being patient (because as all you who know him..he is turtle like in pace) i think without him i wouldn't be here today, because of his everylasting support i bow to you..*bow*

caroline & anna: holly crap am i lucky to have these hotties by me all the time, heads turn and it makes me feel like such a man to have you two women around..but then again it isn't the looks that make me so happy to be their great friends.....it's the support they give me...they are my ajama's (my old lady friends)...i met them through POST, which is a study group that we have, and after our group dissolved, we were the only three to be really close and to keep our friendship...come on....this is why i got a blackberry....to keep in contact with anna and caroline more..=)

diane: wow....if anything i think derek caroline and anna combined is what diane is to me...we have known each other through thick and thin.....for more then 15 years...and she has seen me through ALL ..i mean ALL my hardships and times....if you want to know more about me...but dont want to talk to me, go to her....she is my left arm that i can't cut off without hurting myself....

it is through these friendships and so much more..that i will never give up.....i love you guys..and THANK YOU for your everlasting support and everlasting love for me...

i was supposed to go otu tonite but good thing i didn't because ir ealized i had last minute errands i was supposed to do and my mom pulled a fast one on me and told me to wake up early tommorow to drive everyone around..but i went to walmart to get a card for another funeral that hit close to my heart the other day.....and in retrospect i was thinking about the person that passed.....and her husband....i knew this couple for about three years through the cancer camp i do every year...and the one thing i remembered about her is her love/passion for the kids/and to help, and her love for her husband....and then it hit me....wow...writing a condolence letter to someone that loved his wife with every piece of his heart...i mean if u saw these two...they were 75+..and you could feel and see love radiating from both of them......and how do i write a letter to someone that lost his love.....i dont think i would bear to be able to handle the pain that he is suffering.....i wish that they had that ending of notebook together....wher ethey died together.....because from hundreds even thousands of miles away....i can feel his heart crying...how sad...